KURCED / LYRICS
MEDI-
CINE.
Lyrics
You’re the only number I still know by heart
The only place I ran when I fell apart
Your voice could quiet every storm
Now every silence feels too warm
I’m learning how to sleep alone
In a house that never felt like home
Every shadow wears your face
Every memory keeps its place
You said I had to save myself
But you were all I had
You were my medicine
Now I’m shaking again
Trying to breathe without your hands
Holding my world together
You were my oxygen
Now every breath is counterfeit
I never learned to live without you
Now I’m learning how to die without you
Your coffee cup is still untouched
Funny how I miss that much
Even your side of the bed
Feels louder than the words you said
I still drive past your street at night
Like maybe I’ll catch one more light
Maybe you’ll walk outside and say
“I’ve been waiting… come home.”
I know that’s not how stories end
But hope is hard to kill
You were my medicine
Now I’m shaking again
Trying to breathe without your hands
Holding my world together
You were my oxygen
Now every breath is counterfeit
I never learned to live without you
Now I’m learning who I am
Maybe loving you
Was never the disease
Maybe I just forgot
To save some love for me
Maybe healing hurts
Because it means letting go
Of the only person
Who ever felt like home
You were my medicine
But I survived the withdrawal
Every scar became another page
Another reason not to fall
You’ll always be a part of me
But you don’t own tomorrow
I’ll carry all this pain
Until it turns to something beautiful
Some days healing feels like losing.
Some days losing feels like living.
Today… I finally took my first breath.