KURCED / LYRICS
OVER-
DOSE.
Content note: substance use, emotional distress, and recovery.
This song chooses survival. If these feelings are present for you right now, contact local emergency services or a crisis line—U.S. & Canada: call or text 988.
Lipstick stains on a paper cup
Another night pretending I’m enough
Bathroom mirror won’t meet my eyes
I’m so tired of beautiful lies
Mascara running down my face
Trying to outrun every mistake
You said, “You’ll be alright.”
So why am I shaking tonight?
I wasn’t trying to disappear…
I just wanted the hurt to disappear first.
I don’t wanna overdose
I just wanted all this pain to go
Turn the noise down, let me breathe
Let me find what’s left of me
If you hear me calling out
Pull me from the blackout
I’m not ready to become a ghost…
I don’t wanna overdose.
Every bottle promised peace
None of them could rescue me
Every heartbeat skipped a line
Like it couldn’t make up its mind
Your hoodie still hangs by the door
Like you might walk in once more
I keep reaching through the dark
Trying to restart my heart
I wore my sadness like designer black.
Nobody noticed the cracks.
I don’t wanna overdose
I just wanted all this pain to go
Every scar is speaking loud
Even when I hide inside the crowd
If somebody’s listening now
Tell me I’ll get through somehow
I’m still breathing… barely close…
I don’t wanna overdose.
Don’t romanticize the wreckage.
Don’t call this beautiful.
There’s nothing pretty about
Forgetting your own pulse.
If you’re reaching for the edge tonight,
Reach for my hand instead.
We’ll curse the sunrise together…
And make it there anyway.
I don’t wanna overdose
I wanna hear tomorrow’s notes
I wanna scream until my lungs
Forget what all this silence was
Maybe healing comes in waves
Maybe love is something saved
One heartbeat at a time…
One more chance to rewrite mine.
Black eyeliner.
Shaking hands.
Still alive.
Still singing.
Maybe that’s enough for tonight.